Maybe my feelings get hurt too easily? Maybe I think about things too much. Maybe the perfectionist part of me thinks that the whole world should be one big happy place. (Maybe I’m just a little emotional because my baby will be 1 in one week! Eek!)

People disappoint. Whether it be family, friends, coworkers, clients, etc. People will alwyas disappoint because we are people and that’s what we do. My motto lately has been ‘no expectations= no disappointment’. It’s hard to not have expectations for the people you care about though. Plus, people just suck sometimes. Sometimes they annoy me. It just confirms even more than ever that we should never rely on somebody else for our own happiness!

There is only one ‘person’ that we should fully rely on and that’s God. He is always there, doesn’t judge, doesn’t compete, doesn’t disappoint. He is the only thing that can make me feel fully happy. He is my caffeine craving or my cigarette addiction. (Only healthier) He only wants great things for me. He will always tell me the truth. He will guide me yet give me choices to make on my own. He is the standard & nobody else should try to set my standards any differently.

We are called to be different. Not to be different just for difference’ sake but to be different for Christ. ((Ephesians 4:17-32))
If you don’t like me because of one reason or another, I’m okay with that. I will be who I am and what God has called me to be. I don’t want negativity in my life. Not that kind of negativity.

Don’t wait for your low time to get in touch with God. Let Him rejoice with you in happy times and rely on him in hard times & everything in between.

Side note…I’ve heard too many times people say they don’t want to be a Christian because other Christians are hypocrites. Umm… okay. Nobody else has control over you and your relationship with Jesus! Nobody! So there, you can love Jesus all by yourself now.

I know church is a great place to be hooked into but sometimes I get burned out. I need to take time to step back and focus on my priorities. I like, but I don’t like, the routine of going to church. I like church in itself but I can get too wrapped up in the routine of it. Then it’s like any other place. Last weekend the pastor said church is a hospital for sinners, not a rest home for saints. I’ve heard that several times and I love that! I don’t want to feel like I’m ‘good’ because I go to church. Temptation is everywhere & I still need to make a conscious effort to put God in everything I do. EVERYTHING. Do you know how much stuff that is? A lot! Our TV doesn’t come on because, in our eyes, that is one way to keep our minds pure & focused. Just because someone else watches TV, doesn’t make them wrong and it doesn’t make me think I’m better. It’s one way we’ve chosen to put God first. (And I definitely don’t think you can’t choose God if you have the TV on, lol) This is just a point I’m making. It’s different. And it’s okay to be different!

I want to thank all of my friends for being there for me & I hope I can always be there for you.